Getting Older
When we were kids, we dream big
things, happy things, great things that can be easily achieved in our
dreams. I used to want to become a
doctor, and then a singer, a designer and then a director, a politician, a lawyer,
an actress and even the president of Republic of Indonesia. As I grew older,
those thoughts disappear or simply impossible for me to achieve and I have many
reasons to not achieve them and all of them sounds like many excuses wrap in a
tiny box. I study to become a physics
teacher now, I don’t easily like it. My mom asked me to pursue it so you can
say that I did it for my mom. Just for
your information ,doing things for other people and not for yourselves is
probably the greatest mistake you could ever make. If you call me selfish,
fine. But seriously you would find yourself be bored in two or three months and
then you become really sick of it, hate it, live in a dreadful agony, and of course you would really hate yourself.
Regrets. You would feel them inside like flu, spreading slowly.
I haven’t found anything that can
cure my regrets. All I can do is sleeping
in my room, watching the tv, listening to my ipod, and watching k-drama like
some lunatics. All I can say is I am a mess. I don’t know what I want to do,
and I am bored and tired and feel really tiny and unconfident. I asked many
people a lot of questions about dreams and their own ambitions but all of them gave me
the same answer. Just accept what you have right now, live the life given for
you. I used to like that idea. Now I don’t really like it.
But recently I went on a trip
with my friends and we talked a lot about our dreams and how things are doing
in our lives. Appearently they have the same exact problems as I am. From that
night, I know that I’m not alone and that other people also have the same or
probably even bigger problems than me. And yes, sometimes you need to share your
story and ask for help to get through bumps in life. If you don’t find it the
first time you asked for help, ask again. That’s what I did, and it worked.
After that trip I watched this movie called Dead Poets Society, I will discuss
this movie with you later, that opened my eyes and hearts in a really amazing
ways. How a teacher can inspire his students to have their own voice and seize
the day. I always wanted to become a singer, but I did not seize the day and
tell my mother that I want to quit college and become a singer. I learn something more. I don’t just seize
the day. I accept my decisions in the past and try to seize the day I have
right now. You think maybe I don’t have the guts to tell my mother what I
really want. But really, when I watched John Keating inspired Todd Anderson to
become a better man. I want to be just like John Keating. A teacher, a physics
teacher and probably an english teacher someday that can inspire her students.
November 26, 2012
Syira
wow, , mskipun saya gak sabar bacanya tp q ska tlsn di posternya, ,bsa d jdiin quote
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